Hiatus No Longer!

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CAN YOU BEAT HIM?!

Try it try it try it!!!

Mwahaha~ >D

Also, is anyone else feeling as nostalgic as I am right now? And sorta carefree? Yet willing to work and get things done? o_O

It's a very odd feeling.


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EDIT!!
I tried it and beat him every time, but it's only because I use my OCs. I have Miki, Kit, Mali, and Nahk on there already. I was trying for Nahk'ti... and y'know what he thought?!

SATAN!

DAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH OH DAGGER, YOU ARE A CAD, MY FRIEND. A CAD. xDDDD

Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] Aniki singing with me :) [Mood] Oddly carefree, nostalgic, and happy idk

Master List of Movies, Anime, & Shows

Master List of Movies to See/Buy This Year

• Front of the Class [A Hallmark movie]
• Bedtime Stories
• The Day The World Stood Still [The original]
• The Day The World Stood Still [The remake]
• The Day The Earth Stopped (2008)
• The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor [12/16]
• The Man Who Fell To Earth
• Stargate Atlantis Season 5
• Push (2009)
• Race To Witch Mountain (2009)
  
• InkHeart
• Knowing (2009)
• Coraline (2009)
• Watchmen (2009)
• Confessions of a Shopaholic (2009)
• He's Just Not That Into You (2009)
• Taken (2009)
• Slumdog Millionaire (2008)
• The Incredible Hulk (2008- remake)
• Wanted (2008)
• Taken (2008)
• Bolt (2008)
• Madagascar (2007)
• Madagascar 2 (2008)
• The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button (2008)
• Valkyrie (2008)
• Homeworld (2008)
• Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist (2008)
• The Mist (2008)
• The Lost City Raider (2008)
• I Am Legend (2007)
• The Happening (2008)
• Jumper (2009)
• Doubt (2009)
• Dear Frankie (2004)
  
• UP (2009)
• Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian (2009)
• X-men Origins: Wolverine (2009)
• Star Trek: Countdown (2009)
• Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen (2009)
• Little Ashes (2009)
• Battle For Terra (2009)
• Ice Age: Dawn Of The Dinosaurs (2009)
• The Soloist (2009)
• The Boondock Saints 2: All Saint's Day (2009)
• San suk si gin (2009)
  
• Hagetaka: The Movie (2009)
  
• Shinobi (2005)
• Blood (2009)
• Antique (2008)
• Hatsukoi: Natsu no kioku (2009)
• Bîto rokku rabu (2009)
• The Girlfriend Experience (2009)
• Spread (2009)
• The Boat That Rocked (2009)
• Kamui gaiden (2009)
• Hachiko: A Dog's Story (2009)
• Amalfi (2009)
• Monsters vs Aliens (2009)
• Crank High Voltage (2009)
  

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Master List of Possible Shows To Watch

• Kuroshitsuji
• One-Outs (Nobody Wins But I!)
• Gundam 00
• Jigoku Shoujo: Mitsuganae
• Vampire Knight Guilty
• Junjou Romantica 2
• Monochrome Factor
• Wagaya no Oinari-sama
• Hetalia Axis Powers
• Pandora Heart
• Full Metal Alchemist 2
• xxxHOLiC Shunmuki
• Kiddy Grade 2 - Kiddy Girl-and
• Kiddy Grade -Ignition- (movie 1) (compilation, episodes 1-11)
• Kiddy Grade -Maelstrom- (movie 2) (compilation, episodes 12-18)
• Kiddy Grade -Truth Dawn- (movie 3) (compilation, episodes 19-24)
• Gundam 00 Second Season - Tenshi tachi no Kiseki (this is like a recap episode of 1st season)
• Gundam 00 Second Season MOVIE (coming in 2010)
• Rideback
• Viper Creed
• Chrome Shelled Regios
• Tears to Tiara
• Hanasakeru Seishounen
• Guin Saga
• Shangri-La
• Sengoku Basara
• Valkyria Chronicles
• Phantom Requiem for the Phantom
• DOGS
• Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days

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Master List of Books To Read

• Jackals (manhwa)
• Demon Flowers (manga)
• Kiss Of The Spider Woman
• Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress (in the original chinese text omfg nuu ;A;)
• The Yacoubian Building
• One Thousand and One Nights (manhwa)

Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] just more of the music in my head [Mood] OK I guess

Random notes

Nothing much to update today. I'm mostly catching up on things I jot down when they happen:

• Link to this journal for really cool character galleries

http://nursenikki.deviantart.com/journal/24109431/#comments

• Apparently I felt in the mood for a discussion lol

http://riven.livejournal.com/730998.html?view=2410358#t2410358

• Fact of the day:

Naps can save your life. A 2007 Harvard Medical School study proved that napping three times a week reduced rates of heart attacks by 40%. Yelo offers naps.

This should mean I'll live a long, long life. lol~

AWotD

Amazing Website of the day

http://www.gtgraphics.de/gtgraphics/index.php



Bonus Amazing Website of the day

http://www.salizabeth.net/

FPotD & GoA

Fascinating Post of the day goes to:
http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/dblog.php?u=16899&e=465309

http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/dblog.php?u=16899&e=412081

http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/dblog.php?u=16899&e=577899

http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/dblog.php?u=16899&e=517584

http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/dblog.php?u=16899&e=449935

Gallery of awesome
http://www.unowen.net/tegaki/uentries.php?u=16899

FPotD

Fascinating post of the day goes to:

http://inny-immy.livejournal.com/26437.html#cutid1



LOL


Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] AA - Angela Aki [Mood] Odd

[Auto] Real Update

WELCOME BACK TO THE LAND OF THE LIVING MIKEL. GOOD TO SEE YOU'RE STILL AROUND. 8]

LET'S STAR WITH THE BASICS! I have received a few requests for me to reopen commissions. Generally I wouldn't put this here in this blog, but I'll do it just this once.

I WILL BE TAKING COMMISSIONS AS SOON AS MY SHITTY CLASSES END.

THAT IS ALL.

Now on to life stuff--


01. Finals, Exams, Papers, Projects, and Speeches AHHHHH
My head wants to explode. I'm so unbelievably swamped and there's only two weeks left until finals yet I've got all this stuff to do! It's ridiculous! @__@ My schedule looks more insane than anything I've ever had to deal with before and the fact that I still seem to be a bit behind on it all does NOT comfort me in the slightest. I really wish it would all stop because it's causing stress and sickness and eye twitching and and AND!!! asdfghjkjhgfdsasdfghjhgfds!!!

Anyway I think I'll make through it all in one piece. I have to. I promised some important people that as soon as classes were done that we'd have our crazy all-night RP and plottalk sessions again. This must happen or I finally might flip. I NEED this distraction badly.

So far I think I have all the dates for all my finals. They seem to all come on the beginning portion of FinalsWeek. I think that'll probably mean I will be finished with everything even earlier than I originally thought. This is good and bad at the same time. It also means that we still have an ungodly amount of stuff to do in an ungodly short amount of time. *siiiiiigh*

HERE COMES THE STRESS!

I can only hope I don't fuck myself over with these exams. And my speeches! Holy shit. Those things are not even remotely funny at all. My English is impeccable and that's one of the good things I have on my side (Bi-lingual ftw? yayness \o/) but it still does not help my hatred of giving speeches. I... just freeze up and stare at everyone... or I start cracking jokes to make it seems as though I'm not really up in front of a gazillion people about to give a speech. It helps... kinda.

...well... maybe not... but I like to make myself believe so. orz

Can't blame a guy for trying. *shrug*

...Meanwhile I have been trying to keep with everything going on in my drama class. This is... it works, and yet it does not. I've recently finished our latest project (photographing indoor lightning... oh joy) and I still have no idea what I'm supposed to tell the class on Tuesday. I mean, what the fuck can I tell them? "The shadows.... LOOM OVER THE LIGHT! ....FEAR THE LIGHT!! Dx"

...oh yeah. I can see that going over well.

Fuck me. Really. Fuck. Me.


02. Family and Friends
As far as I'm concerned, I think I'm two fries shot of a happy meal losing my mind. SO. MUCH. HAS. HAPPENED. It feels utterly unreal. I think I told you about my dear friend who died not even two months ago? Well to add to the dead list is my grumpy old, wonderful cat Cael who's been with me since I was a little kid. I had to put him to sleep less than 12 hours ago. Both of these deaths were so sudden and abrupt, I'm still in so much shock. To make things worse, my classes are becoming really stressful and the work just seems to keep piling up. Luckily my professors are understanding, but there's only so much I can do at one time. Work isn't even the biggest thing anymore either, though it's getting pretty crazy there too.

But my biggest issue right now is Aniki. Gods, I just don't know how much more of this he can take. He's become sort of reclusive again and it's worrying me to death, but he's still with me, still loves me, and still wants to keep going (which is the only saving grace here). It's just, well, he had an operation beginning of September of last year. It was a major operation and it's left him sort of in limbo as to recovering. He was going really well but with everything that's going on, the stress is making him get agitated easily and stomach sickness comes to him at any moment. I think he's just so sad he doesn't know what to do with himself and that fact that I'm just as broken up isn't helping either. I'm the one who's always strong and knows what I'm doing and lately I feel like I just... don't, anymore. I know it's scaring him, so I try to hide it but he knows and it scares him even more.

I want to be the loving older brother and lover I've always been. I want to be able to be there for him and calm him down when he's upset, but sometimes it's hard to always be the one who's alright with all the shit that's going down around me. I think he knows that too so he's trying harder not to get too upset, emotional or depressed which means he's holding it inside the way I normally do, which... does not work well for him. I know he's not much like me in that department or I'm really worried about him doing this sort of thing in attempts to "help me". I don't want him to. Not like this. I love him too much to let him go through all this hell for me, though I suppose he'd say the same to me but it's my prerogative if I want to do this for him. (And yes, I know how contradictory that sounds but I don't care right now. I really, really don't.)

*sigh* Gods I don't even know what to do anymore. Things are so crazy. Waaay too much is happening waay too soon. Everything feels mind-boggling to me.

At least friends are still being awesome which is yet another small huge blessing on my part. If I didn't have such amazingly spazztasical people in my life I swear I really wouldn't have much to live for at times. When everyone you think won't let you down does, family and friends are the people you appreciate more than anyone else and that's definitely the case in my situation. I love them all so much. I don't know what I'd do without them.

Mindy-san and I have re-initiated the HgN original RPG by simply fucking remembering where we left off like two years ago. fjdkslndjklsgnkdnsk I cannot wait until I'll have more time to finally participate in our rp-all-nighters. ♥ :]

Mae-chan and my American friends want to drag Aniki and I to America to have a vacation with them in July. I'm not sure if I can do that or not since I think we're going to try taking a summer course or two to get ahead with some of my classes, but I don't have any times or days yet so I don't know. Hopefully I'll be able to. That would be nice to see them. Namu and Dagger want us to come to the UK so we could spend some time with them. I want to see them so bad. I miss them terribly.


03. CLASSES & REGISTRATION
Classes for this semester is already in the dumps. I hope I'll at least be able to maintain a B/B+ average. I'm praying to every deity I can think of and asking my friends to do the same just so that maybe things won't look quite as horrible as they're appearing. T__T

Today I actually skipped out on all my classes just to sleep in. I'm so tired. Exhausted really. I'm probably going to end up sleeping in again today... maybe. We'll see. I just don't feel like going in to classes right now. I can't focus on most of it anyway.

Registration has been a bit hectic as usual, but luckily I think it has been mostly resolved. I still need to talk to the director of the Writing department to see about my individualized independent study CRWR courses.

Good news! I've chosen two summer course (one for my major and one for my minor) and they look pretty interesting. I'm highly looking forward to them. ♥ Summer classes are miraculously all paid for! This was mostly because of some sort of awesome rebate for being a member of the armed forces.

So, this basically means we're covered if we want to take classes this summer.

Holy shit yay. :DDDDDDDDDDD


04. Art Block is huge.
I've been hating my art so bad since. Like. I don't know, the start of the year. No drive, no will, no ANYTHING. It's like everything I draw comes out looking like shit, and I hate it. And just. This is happening way too often for my liking and I have commissions to do and I feel like a failure because I don't want to draw them crap but I don't want to have them waiting as I'm sure they will be if I don't find my art muse again. I feel as though everyone's gotten so much better with their art than me and this is mostly because I haven't even be able to focus on drawing anything for myself or even others. I have tons of new art I'd love to draw but I haven't had the chance to.

Like the Impalti. God knows I want to draw them. I want to draw Rein and Sheppard. SO. BAD.

UGH.

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH.


05. Writing Block is even BIGGER.
So you cannot believe how frustrating this one is. I don't know what else to do to help motivate me even more. I'm simply at my wits end. I have tons of ideas floating around in my head but when I go to sit down to write them, nothing wants to come out and I don't know what I'm going to do to try and get my mojo back. Fucking-A. I hate this more than you can possibly begin to understand. I've created a whole new Wunderkind species, characters, people, places and things, sayings, customs, cultures and I'm just sitting here like a fucking bum unable to muster up anything even vaguely similar to motivation in order to complete the act of writing it down.

Fuck me.

Hard.


06. HgN lol YOU KNOW WHAT'S UNDER HERE
This is a bit of overlap from the art block section, but it's true. Hane ga Nai stuff has completely taken over my every conscious and unconscious moments. I want to write up this new Arc about Sheppard, Rein, the Impalti, and everything. It's such a huge part of things now that I really really REALLY want it to happen just the way I see it in my brain... but I'm afraid to even dare writing it down. I'm afraid I'll buther it horribly. >__>;; I know this sounds weird, but I honestly think it won't come out the way I want it to unless I'm really focused on it and nothing else.

That's not happening anytime soon.

...we might be waiting a while.

=___=;;;


07. MusicLife
I found old CDs and music lately, but I've been listening to Angela Aki, Gackt, Gundam 00, Code Geass, and K-pop/rap mostly. My Jammin! and ReAwakening playlists hae been my ultimate friends keeping me up into all crazy hours of the night and day slowly taking over my brain.

This is good. I need this sort of distraction from everyday life and it's good music to become indulged in.

I can only hope I don't get sick of it.

Then I'd have to find new music to listen to and holy fuck, that's probably on happening very soon.




There's probably more but I've lost it, so I'll end here.

Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] The music in my head (which happens to be Replay) [Mood] Desperately wanting to do something, yet not knowing what to do

This IS constructive. I swear I'm not lying.

Have a meme.



1. Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/etc.
2. Have your f-list guess your favorite character(s) from each item

FOR OBVIOUS REASONS I'm not listing HgN because I'm always changing my favorite person around depending on who we're playing with most. ♥ (And for even more obvious reasons that it would almost always be Miki on default anywayz~)


01. Stargate Atlantis
02. D.Gray-man
03. Stargate SG-1
04. Queer As Folk
05. The God Eaters
06. The Merro Tree
07. Hunter X Hunter
08. The Boondock Saints
09. Full Metal Alchemist (the original, not the remake)
10. CSI: Las Vegas
11. Family Guy
12. Gundam 00 S1&2 (One for each season)
13. Code Geass R1 (There are two for this season)
14. Code Geass R2 (There are three for this season)
15. Shadow Of Memory
16. Finding Neverland
17. 12 Monkeys
18. One Thousand And One Nights (manga)
19. Let Dai
20. Moon Child


Oh, and some of them might have more than one... I just didn't want to give away hints for all of them. xD

Twittering

Gotta post some of the twitter twits here because I randomly decided to update that on a somewhat daily basis the past few days. Why? I have no idea, but hey... what can I say?

• Fascinating post of the day goes to: http://tinyurl.com/cyupeb LOL
  3 minutes ago from web
• pulled an all-nighter with the amazing Mindy-san!! OMFG. <3
  6:54 PM Apr 18th from web
• DRAWING BLOOD CAME IN THE MAIL!! *FLAIL ABOUT EXCITEDLY!!!!!!!*
  10:41 AM Apr 18th from web
• watching the next generation... oh barkley, you idiot~
  8:06 AM Apr 18th from web
• pfft just found a book called The True Story of the Three Little Pigs By A. Wolf. XDDD
  4:19 AM Apr 18th from web
• adding books to my shelfari and visual bookshelf, wishing life were this easy
  4:10 AM Apr 18th from web
• finally eating something. It's been DAYS.
  4:05 AM Apr 18th from web
• @vusc LOL. Oh god, I had to do that once. It was not a pretty sight at all.
  4:04 AM Apr 18th from web
  
• @vusc ganbatte yo~~ :]
  12:39 PM Apr 13th from web
• @vusc I'm sure you will be! :D ps - this is IrrerasableSin from DA. lawl~~ imma stalking you here too b/c ur just that cool. :B
  4:47 PM Apr 10th from web
• Can't believe Spring Break is almost over!! ;0;
  5:10 AM Apr 10th from web
• @vusc How's spring break so far? :]
  5:09 AM Apr 10th from web in reply to vusc

Yeah... lol. I swear I'll post something constructive soon. ♥

For Those Of You That Take Commissions

There is something that has bothered me for a long time now and that is... why is it that so many people who take commissions get irritated at their commissioners when they correct them on something?


For instance:

Example 1
Commissioner: "You gave him a tail. He doesn't have a tail."
Artist: "Wtf STFU N BE GREATFUL BIATCH!"

...

Example 2
Commissioner: "The hair is the wrong color."
Artist: "I DON'T CAAAAARRRE. STFU"

. . .



Okay.

So I'm exaggerating big time, buuuuuut I think I'm allowed to just this once, since I take commissions as well as commission others.

This kind of disrespect and disregard for the completion of quality work and for the input of the commissioner is completely unacceptable. From my humble opinion, I just don't see the need to any of it, whether it be from the commissioner or the artist. There's no need for either to bitch and complain about corrections or mistakes on commissions, especially when they are commissions of OCs (original characters), or when the commissioner has a particular idea and asks the artist if they can do it or not.

I'm not saying any commissioner has the right to do one of these:

Commissioner: OMG YOU SUUUUCK! THAT'S NOT THE WAY YOU DO IT AT ALL! CAN'T YOU JUST DRAW IT THE WAY I SAY????? OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGAWD!

OR

Commissioner: Nevermind I want you to change EVERYTHING because none of it looks right and I forgot to tell you about all these specific details and blah blah blah blah!


...I'm definitely not saying a commissioner has the right to do any of that. XDD In fact, that's more than enough reason to cancel a commission and put the commissioner on a blacklist so they can't EVER order again. (But that's a topic for another journal. XD)

My main point is that, artists often get a bit cocky when their commissioners ask them about specific things or have some idea in mind that might be a bit tricky or complicated.

Such as designing an OC.

I know there are more than enough people on this site who aren't artists that draw! But they still have great ideas in their heads that they would like to see realized. So they come with money in hand to these amazing artists who they've idolized for ages and ask for a commissioned piece of their character or of a place or whatever! And more often than not, they give all the details they possibly can, trying to make it easier for the artist to visualize their dream... and y'know what happens?

Artist: "Here you go [LINK OF SOME SORTS]"
Commissioner: " .......that's not really what I asked for."
Artist: "You don't like it?"
Commissioner: "Well, it's really nice and all, but there is a lot/some really important details I told you about when you asked for what I wanted that aren't even in the thing."
Artist: "Uh, well... I'm sorry but I've finished inking/coloring/markering/whatever so I can't change it. You'll just have to take it as it is."
Commissioner: "..."

I speak from personal experience as well as the horror stories I've heard from others.

I just don't get it.

Why would some artists do that when they know the person commissioning them is looking for something specific or trying to get an accurate rendition of a character/place/thing? Can't they show them the WIP so they could tell them beforehand if anything is missing or needs to be fixed? Isn't there some portion of their brain that tells them to refer back to the original request to see if they remembered to put everything into the commission? IS IT SO HARD TO SIMPLY ASK THE COMMISSIONER IF THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND OR THINK SOMETHING MIGHT BE MISSING?????

I always check back on the original request. ALWAYS. I like actually doing the request I was given, and not simply reading it over and doing a half-assed job of what I think the commissioner wanted. My policy is that if someone wanted you to take creative license on the commission they ASKED and PAID FOR, then they would say so, or (at the very least) you should ask them.

The other thing I believe many artists somehow forget is:

THE COMMISSIONER IS PAYING YOU.

Out of pocket.

Not with bingo points or trinkets, BUT WITH HARD EARNED CASH.

It is not a request where you have the opportunity of changing something if you'd like. SOMEONE IS PAYING YOU TO DO A JOB. Not what you want, but what they want. If you had an office job or worked at a place where customer service is first, would you simply glaze over the details? No. You'd make sure you did your job correctly so you don't end up pissing off the customer or your boss and getting fired or reprimanded.

How is it that artists who take commissions can't act the same way? It really isn't that hard to pay attention to detail. Isn't that what being a really good artist is all about? Having a good eye and amazing attention to detail?

Somehow the whole business of taking and giving commissions has gone downhill. At first it wasn't quite like this, but nowadays it seems nearly anyone and everyone takes commissions, and many/most think of only the quantity and how fast they can get them done, and not the quality of the work. It's almost as though taking commissions makes you part of the "In crowd" and "super popular" or something.

It's... pretty sad that things have come down to this.

I really want the quality of art back!

GIVE IT BACK!!!

Not-so-organized update [Monday April 06, 2009]

Well, life certainly hasn't been easy since my Charlie's death. I won't even try to pretend that I'm alright with everything that's happened. It's like 10 years ago and I really didn't need this coming back to haunt me again. Not now, not when everything was going so good. But I won't dwell on it. No point. No need. There's nothing I can do to change it and there's nothing that thinking about it will do to help me right now either.

I'm absurdly behind in classes and the end of the semester is closing in fast. Finals start sometime nearing the end of the month into the beginning of next month and I feel so screwed. Aniki has just been a mess since all this has happened and there seems like there's only so much I can do to comfort him. I wish there was more I could do, but I honestly don't know what to do sometimes. To make things worse, I know the helplessness I'm feeling he's feeling, because he always seems to get defensive if I comfort him too long or right when he starts to break down. It's like he's hung over the fact that I'm comforting him when he should comforting me and it frustrates him. It's not like I don't know. I feel the same way when he tries to hold me or talk me out of my depressive moments.

...maybe we do need a shrink. Though I wouldn't be able to open up to them. Too many bad memories on that end in an entirely differently matter altogether.

Anyway. This wasn't really what I wanted to talk about. Just a random update on life and how things are going right? Right. OK. So let's list some of the "important" happenings lately.

• I've gotten back into Inuyasha (specifically SessInucest) fanfiction. It's. So. Addicting! @0@
• Got my writing mojo back.
• Then lost it.
• And got it back again. See here to see what I mean.
• Was actually told by my school and professors that I needed a mandatory vacation. I found out Aniki got the same "advice" so we took a week "vacation" in the States about two weeks or so ago. We did a surprising amount of nothing during this time and mostly just moped and tried to act happy occassionally when friends came over to cheer us up.
  
• Aniki hasn't drawn a single thing since Charlie's death. He just doesn't seem to be motivated to do it anymore. It's... very unsettling.
• Listened to some old music, like going back into my past. Specifically I listened to Gravitation, Iceman, Bad Luck, The Spirit Room album and others.
• Got my first F on a midterm. I was more than devastated. Luckily my professor was suprisingly understanding and is going to let me do a take home make-up and factor the two grades together to come up with something more satisfying for everyone.
• Cried more than I think I have in a long, long time.
• Had one of the most shattering moments of my YA life: Charlie's sister actually told me to my face that it's my fault he's dead and that it should have been me.
  
• Thus issuing the crying and shitty all-around feelings during my supposed "vacation week".
• When we got back she called and apologized and told us she didn't mean what she said and such... not like I really care one way or another. She won't be hearing from me ever again. You can count on that.
• Behind on college work.
• Had to ask for a reassignment at my job because I'm not up to being editor for anyone right now, not even my own work, so temporarily I'm on paid leave.
• I have a shitload of absences, which most of my professors are going to completely ignore because of everything that's happened, but I still have to watch it.
• I didn't go to any of last week's Hybrid Identity classes and a paper was due in that class which I didn't even do yet. Fuck.
• Did make up a lot of work in terms of homeworks, projects, quizzes, and such... but I'm still behind because while making up all that I missed out on some current stuff and... hell.
• No sleep. I just can't sleep long enough to actually sleep if you know what I mean. It's incredibly frustrating and doing shitty things to my health.
• Which brings me to my next major point: I'M SICK. *SNEEZES* My head hurts, my nose hurts, my eyes and sinuses hurt, my throat hurts (though not as much as before) and I'm tired, cranky, and highly irritated.
• On the bright side it's finally Spring Break! 8D;;;; ......fucking spring break now ruined by a goddamn cold you gotta be fucking kidding me nkjfnsaljfnakndjgldnajkg ajdlgnajkdnjadnajdj *turns ranting and raving*
• Dag called from England telling me about all the craziness happening in London. I was shitface worried for him since he's among the rioters and police supposedly acting as peacekeeper which is probably the worse job he could be enlisted in right now.
  
• Luckily he's no longer in the danger zone right now. (Thank the gods...)
• I haven't really done anything art related in a long time, so those watching my RU blog don't expect anything any time soon. :(
  
• Finances are soo tight right now. My accounts and stocks in the US are plummeting and I'm losing money which is not what I need to hear. One of our big fallbacks is the money we have in US and Swiss banks since it's worth a lot more there than it is here. Whenever we're in a jam or need some quick cash we just tap into those but if the US funds are taking such huge hit right now we have to transfer all the funds to Swiss banking or some other European bank where the money might liquidate. Either way, we're sort of being screwed over here. I can't have our money run too low or we'll need to start working our special jobs again which I'm not so happy about trying with the way things are with international borders right now. Also Aniki's health has me worried about stressing him too much, too hard, too soon. I could do it myself, but we were a team and there was a point to it. Going solo would be possible but.. well, whatever. I'm really in the mood for it either way. Maybe we'll cash in some debts instead, if push comes to shove.
• I'm going through a mirad of emotions and it's really getting on my nerves. My body's hurting all over (and not because of the cold either) and it's making things worse. At least I haven't had any... really bad episodes lately which is good, but if all this chaos keeps up.. it's going to make me sick. I just know it will. And if it'll effect me, it'll effect Aniki. That I can't have.
  
• Might have to go back on my high dose meds again. Ugghhh... hooray for the return of psychotic Miki! -___-;; ...eh heh heh... no.
  

...and yeah... that's been my life the past few weeks.. month? Whatever. Anyway, don't expect me to have time to update weekly on this thing anymore. It's just not happening.

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] Folie a Deux playlist [Mood] Sick and irritable but determined to get some work done!!

Twitards Retardation

This takes the cake. Without a doubt.

Twilight Fans Go Wild... God help us all.

Weekly Update [Feb. 22 - Mar.7]

Quote of the Week: “Be true to your work, your word, and your friend.” – Henry David Thoreau (Week 9)
Quote of the Week: “Never trouble another for what you can do yourself.” – Thomas Jefferson (Week 10)

I can't even break down this week and the last by the happenings of the day. Too much happened, too fast.

To begin with, one of my closest friends died this week. He was like a big brother to me and now he's gone. I don't know what I'm feeling or how I'm even still here going about life day by day. It's so hectic and I'd prefer not to talk about it here, except to make note that it occurred on Feb.25, 2009 @ 11:00AM.

If you want to read more about it you can go here to do so.


-Later
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] nothing [Mood] indescribable

Weekly Update [Feb. 15-21]

Quote of the Week: “Great necessities called out great virtues.” – Abigail Adams

Sunday

• Got a call and was asked by one of my old professor to come as a guest speaker to her class Monday so I agreed even though I’ve got an insane amount of work to do, I decided it would be a good chance to see her again and get in some extra points among the professor as a guest speaker.
• University website was still down.
• Helped Aniki with his reading assignments because they were as crazy as mine and he’s mostly in ART classes!! @__@
• Read the entire play of Fiddler On The Roof
  

Monday

• Website was back up, but had some problems with it. Everything was completely changed and I couldn’t find a damn thing. Emails weren’t working. You couldn’t d/l things from the student files. Everything was screwy.
• Work
• Work
• Work
• Did I mention work??
• Work
• WORK
• Homework
• WORK LIST
  
• 
  

Research information about authors I chose for Pub class

Research information about other books in competition with the book I want to publish for Pub class

Book Idea due THURSDAY

Editorial Report due THURSDAY

Table of Contents due THURSDAY

READ A Woman’s Kingdom (got to 2nd chapter??)

Find an interesting article about

Report on GLBT readings and the nature of homoeroticism in popular culture

Presentation due THURSDAY

Read the Fiddler On The Roof commentaries

Write up reaction to the play I chose for expressive arts

Study for quiz TOMORROW in World Lit

Read “In The Cemetary Where Al Jolson Was Buried”

• 
  
• Went back to NU main campus and came to her CW class and talked to all the youngins xDD;;;
• Got back home and worked my ass off. 8DDDD;;;
  

Tuesday

• This day was not as insane as Thursday, but it was still tiring. Most things weren’t due today so it wasn’t as hectic and the fact that the website had cause everyone so much problems, no one was really prepared (profs included) so we couldn’t really do anything much in classes.
• CW: Was supposed to have discussed the story but more than half the class didn’t have it because they couldn’t d/l it from the website. Because of this we did some free-writing instead. I was immensely happy about this since we hadn’t written a damn thing yet and this was supposed to be a friggin creative WRITING class. We’d read like it was more like a literature class so this chance to write what we wanted was nice.
• Publishing: Nothing of importance. I continued writing what I’d started the class before in my notebook instead since this guy doesn’t allow laptops in his class. *eyeroll*
• GLBT: Handed in report. Was given next assignment due in a couple weeks. Had an in class essay/reaction paper to a question posed to us.
• Hybrid: Nothing particularly interesting. Luckily I was able to pretend I knew what I was talking about in regards to Sula, and no one was the wiser. 8D;;
• Break: Actually got the chance to sit with Aniki in the car in a nice scenic part of the campus and EAT SOMETHING. @~@
• World Lit: Presented in class project from last class. Took our first quiz in this class and holy crap it was not what I was expecting at all. That’s for sure. It was 50 questions and 2 essay questions! AHHHHHHH!! DDDD8 I didn’t have time to finish the 2nd essay question right and then I rambled in the first one and and and—yeah I didn’t come out of this class feeling all that great to be honest with you. U_U
• Break: ...uh... I don’t remember actually. I think I went in to class early or maybe I slept. MY MEMORY’S GOING!! *WOESSSSSSSS*
• Theatre: Talked about the play I chose (Fiddler on the Roof) and discussed the dynamics of what made the play a good one. Then went about reenacting some of it with my classmates. Basically all we did... o_o
• Got home and went straight to work on some of the insane things due on Thursday
• Also worked on my own writing because if I didn’t I thought I’d go mad.
• Dance for 4 hours throughout the night and it felt DAMNED. GOOD.
  

Wednesday

• Went to sleep at 8 am. Slept until 15.31
• Had an insane amount of homework to do and work well into the next day.
  
• WORK LIST
  

• Research information about authors I chose for Pub class due TOMORROW
• Research information about other books in competition with the book I want to publish for Pub class due TOMORROW
• Book Idea due TOMORROW
• Editorial Report due TOMORROW
• Table of Contents due TOMORROW
• READ MY LIFE due TOMORROW (Never got to *sob*)
• Read A Woman’s Kingdom due TOMORROW
• Read student stories for CW due TOMORROW
• Write critiques for both stories due TOMORROW
• Type up resume due TOMORROW
• Find an interesting topic or ad related to my major due TOMORROW
• Presentation due TOMORROW
• GLBT Project due TOMORROW
• Study for quiz TOMORROW

• 
  
• Pick up new manuscript proof and look through (over 250 pages!! TAT)
• Worked like a dog ALL DAY&NIGHT LONG. T___T

Thursday

• Was up until 8:15 this morning working on homework. Class start at 10. Got half an hour of sleep then sped to class and STILL got there on time. HOW? I DO NOT KNOW. ;;;;;;;;
• I AM SO TIRED WTF
• CW: Had our first critiques in the class and it was... amusing and sad at the same time. Interesting conversations from mostly everyone but the first girl, the one who’s piece I torn to pieces in my critique (nicely though) for her piece of crap story with all its inconsistencies made me pretty angry with her flippant attitude and excuses for why it was so bad. =__=;; I... just didn’t need to hear her speak. Really. It made me feel like ‘why had I even bothered giving her the advice I gave if that’s her attitude???’ Really discouraging from that standpoint. AND DID I MENTION I WAS TIRED? I did not need her shit. It really pissed me off and my lack of sleep only made the situation worse. The second one was much better and the girl was really appreciative for our feedback even with we pointed out the flaws. Overall: Bearable class, but sort of irritating in its way.
• Publishing: Actually not all that boring, plus I got out early. Handed in research, Book Idea, Table of Contents, & Editorial Report at end of class. We had a guest speaker from Kodansha who I knew speaking to us. We saw each other and was like “HEY!! IT’S YOU! WASSUP??? :3333” xD It was amusing. The prof noticed this and was surprised we knew each other. She told him that I actually worked for the company (which I’d been withholding from him because I wanted to learn as much as I could from a “senior publisher” like he claimed himself to be, but really just sort of grates on my nerves most of the time) and you should’ve seen the look on his face. He actually got red. I was tempted to rub it in his face more.... but I didn’t. No need. I’ll do it next class when I correct him for using a term incorrectly or bashes the practices of “newbies” just because he doesn’t like ‘em. 8D
• GLBT: PRESENTATION!! AHHHHHHH D: I all but forgot I had to present the damn thing in class so when I got in and everyone was talking about presenting their project I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. D8 I have another presentation in my next class so I was not looking forward to two of them in a row. That was like mass-murder of something. I messed up my improv speech at least 67483985874398482 times but I kept them entertained with laughter with jokes about how bad I was doing and how I’d make Minister banish me from the country. Either way, I got through it somehow... though the grade is still left to be seen. *siiiiighs*
• Hybrid: PRESENTATION #2!! Class broke up into groups and mine was about color pigmentation as seen in the novel (that I hadn’t read oh el oh ellllllllaaaaahhhhh 8D;;;) but it was actually pretty easy and since I offered to be recorder I didn’t have to really say anything. I gave my two-cents, found stuff in the book and wrote it down. The rest of the group presented and we’ll do this again next Tues with Atonement. I got to know more people in my huge-ass class which was nice and found out they were quite pleasant people so I didn’t have to work in a hostile situation. (Thank you deities above!) Some of them knew who I was, which was a little creepy, but they weren’t stalkerish, just fans or had seen/heard about me on campus lol. Surprisingly this class woke me up a bit, but it only lasted until I the end of class. Then I was like molasses on my feet. =A=
• Break: GUESS WHAT? I’M STILL TIRED AS FUCK.
• World Lit: QUIZ TODAY! HAHA LOL FUCCCCK T___T Oh god, by this class I was so tired and felt like I hadn’t accomplished a thing that I just sat there and stared at the desk in front of me. Worse yet I got back the quiz I did last class and it was NOT what I was hoping for. Friggin C+. WHAT.THE.FUCK. I... I sinking into that place that a lot of artsy people like me and Aniki and others like us fall into when we try our hardest and then someone throws something like this in our face. I... I... I-I just might have burst into tears or something if Takahashi spoke up and said that he couldn’t take this quiz and that he was fed up and just ranted. I didn’t hear much of it because I was just sort of crippling under the pressure, feeling the craziness of this week hitting me full force (which I was not happy about, usually it happens after we get home at least, not in the middle of class!!) but thank you god he somehow managed to convince the prof to postpone half the quiz for Tues. THIS WAS PROBABLY THE ONLY HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY ;0; We only took the 1st part of the quiz and the essay half will be on Tues AND when I went to talk to him about the quiz he (he’s really a nice guy and I like him quite a bit, I’ve got NOTHING against him at all and I can tell he likes me too since he often talks to me after class and asks how things are going, how classes are going, how my brother’s doing, if we need any help with anything or if I’d expand upon something I’d brought up in class discussion, etc) said he could tell I was just exhausted and asked if I’d gotten a chance to read (the story the essay portion of the quiz will be on) and I told him honestly that I hadn’t and he seemed to understand and said a lot of people hadn’t. We were all behind in that class because the reading-load was so heavy. He said he hoped we all caught up over this weekend because he couldn’t really push off the quiz any longer because they were so behind in the schedule. BUT ANYWAY. When I asked him about he quiz, he was surprised too and asked what happened. I explained and long story short, he said I could retake it no penalty. T___T Bless that man. SERIOUSLY. I will not let this chance go by. I’ll take it Tues during my short break before the class. Coming out of that class I was exhausted, the quiz was still long and tiring and I was still not up to quiz-taking material right now, but it was better because I at least knew what the hell I was doing.
• Break: STILL FEELIN IT D8;;;
• Theatre: Hoshit I am so feelin it--*SHOT* Okay so I’ll finally stop bitching now. I’m trying to keep myself awake by typing this up and it’s kinda working. We’re supposedly doing critiques today but it’s not happening that way at all. Luckily we got early so I sent a text to Aniki and told him that if he wanted I’d come to his class, otherwise I’d bring the car around and go to sleep. xD;; He apparently thought I’d sleep better if I stayed with him (which is true, so I went, and I did... Veni Vidi Vici??? *SHOT FOR LAME*)
• When Aniki’s class was over I yanked him and his stuff off to the car and made him drive us home ASAP and when we got home I collapsed on the couch and didn’t move until 2:50 in the morning xD;
  

Friday

• Went shopping for grocery stuffs
• Bought some books (Afterschool Nightmare v.10, Claymore v.14, The Water Lovers of Sirilon, Crimson Hero v.10, and Where Flows The Water)
• Worked on manuscript which I turned in to my publisher just before 5pm! (BOOYAH! TAKE THAT LOCK-UP DOORMAN! TAKE. THAT! *evil cackle*)
• During the night I worked on copyediting manuscript for Kodansha.
• Started reading Sula
  

Saturday

• Talked with Mindy-san!! :D
• Sent notes to classmates who asked
• Got notes for Pub & Comp
• Wasn’t going to classes but Aniki reminded me I did get out of class early so no extra hours were put in this week and well... I need to make them up. So I went and took him to his classes too. Spent exactly 3 hours there XD;;
• Finished Sula
• Started reading Chekhov, “My Life”. Got halfway through.
• Read Achebe, “Things Fall Apart” ch.1-6
• Started reading Atonement (I think I’ve all but given up already =_=;; )

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] The Who - My Generation, Never Get Fooled Again / Billy Talent - River Below [Mood] STRESSED!! TOO MUCH WORK TO DO AHHHHH!

Book Recs?

So any book recs for me?
Send to haneganai@aim.com
I'm in need of something good to read and soon.

Most of you know what I like so I don't have to reiterate the obvious.
I'm also branching out into other things so if anyone has seen something interesting lately, hit me with some links or a brief synopsis of whatever so I can see for myself if it's something I'd like. :]

Oh yes and I thought this was quite amusing:

Drawing Blood by Poppy Z. Brite
This is a weird one. It's sort of a ghost story on acid. No other way to explain it. It's really good, if a little disturbing, so give it a try.


Best review I've ever read for the book. XD ♥

News

That's... disturbing in so many ways. I really don't know what else to say.

-....Later
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] G1 Playlist [Mood] disturbed

This makes my teeth hurt

...and cause diabetes to young children. :<

Weekly Update [Feb. 08-14]

Quote of the Week: “If music be the food of love, then play on!” – Shakespeare

Sunday

• Read the manuscript once.
• Read the manuscript twice.
• Gave it to Aniki. Let him read it once.
• Then twice.
• Then we called up my publishing house and asked him if he'd signed a contract with the author yet because he if had he'd been jipped something terrible.
• Though not as terrible as the manuscript.
  

Monday

• Went into the office to hand in the manuscript with not only mine, but Aniki's AND Saki's comments on it and watched as chief sorta turned into a ghost looking at how I'd practically torn the thing apart.
  
• He gave me a raise for putting up with something so shitty and told me to take the day off. Consolation prizes or something for having given me something worthy of slitting my wrists over.
• Got home and told Aniki why I was back and then went the fuck to sleep.
• Woke up, but it was late.
• Called heating company and electrical and asked for a refill and maintenance for early tomorrow morning.
  
• Went to see Cael at the vet since we hadn't yesterday. Heard we'd be able to take him home sometime this week if his recovery continues to progress as it was.
• Wrote my World Lit paper due TOMORROW
• Finished my activist project due THURSDAY
• Read Tevye stories
  

Tuesday

• Went to see Cael at the vet before class. He looked better than he had before and even seemed to know who we were. This was probably the only good piece of news for the day.
  
• CW: Found out there will be no class on Thursday but we have to come in on Wednesday for some seminar and write a paper on it. x_X;; Of course I can't make that. I have work, so I told her and she said instead I have to write up the first page of my fiction THREE DIFFERENT WAYS and hand it in next class (Tues). ....uh...WHUT? Seriously? Like, seriously seriously? It's really not fair I tell you. It's just not fair. :(
  
• Publishing: Did NOT have a good class AT ALL. I... found out that there was a quiz today and I didn't even have notes for it or anything! Of course I had no idea what I was doing and only got like 2 answers on the damn thing right! LKDNSLDKNGSLKDNSLKDNGKDN LKDS D THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO START OFF THIS CLASS IN TERMS OF GRADES!!! DX *HUFFHUFFSEETHEEEE*
  
• GLBT: Was thrown for a loop again! Was told to write an in-class paper. UGGHH. @~@ *haaates* I can never concentrate in class because someone's doing something irritating or the professor talks, a phone rings, god knows what! It's frustrating when my thoughts get interrupted like that. Worse yet is that I can't calm down enough to write what I want to so it never comes out the way I want it to. *AGONIZED SIGH*
  
• Hybrid: Got away with murder in this class. I was supposed to have Sula read but WE NEVER GOT TO IT! HA!! TAKE THAT WHOEVER IT IS THAT'S TRYING TO JINX MEH! Dx ...however, on the flip-side we still got into a pickle because he wants Sula read by next class annnnd got the feeling since then that I wouldn't have the time to finish or even start it. ;__; (which is exactly what happened)
  
• Break: Barely had time to see Aniki and then eat. The line wrapped around the fucking building. I KID YOU NOT. By the time we actually got a friggin bagel w/ cream cheese and a coffee (me) & salad, dressing, coke and a B&W cookie (Aniki) we had to run like WOAH to get to class... which we both got to late anyway T__T And then on the way there the zipper to my coat fucking broke. IT. FUCKING. BROKE. WHAT.THE.HELL.
  
• World Lit: Handed in 1st paper. Was an enjoyable class. I swear it's one of the only classes I'm enjoying right now. @_@ Talked about Tevye stories. Watched some of Fiddler On The Roof. The quiz for Thurs was put off until Tues.
  
• Break: Didn't bother to see Aniki since I figured he wouldn't have time and I certainly didn't either. I texted him the whole 35 mins instead. 8D;;; (LOL can we say 100+ text messages in the span of half an hour? L.O.L.) THOUGH THE FUCKING PHONE DIED TOWARDS THE END EVEN THOUGH I CHARGED IT LAST NIGHT AND AND... I REALLY JUST DON'T KNOW. D8
  
• Theatre: Apparently we were supposed to have a topic for our next performance chosen already... AND AND WE HAVE SOME FRIGGIN RESEARCH PAPER DUE IN LIKE A WEEK AND WTF. JUST WTF. DX
  
• Went to see what was up with Aniki, but COULDN'T FIND HIM. gjkdsgn ldjgkdnslkdjs His class was empty and there was neither hide nor hair of him anywhere. My phone was dead so I couldn't call him and my twin sense was dead due to lack of proper food, caffeinated, and sleep and I was PANICKING.
  
• I managed to find his professor who said Aniki didn't feel all that great and went to the bathroom but didn't come back since then even after the class ended. He said that he had locked his things in the room until he hopefully came back to get them. I was sooo close to asking why he didn't go looking for him since he knows he's still recovering and occasionally get bouts of upset stomach when he gets stressed and kjslna fljks nfsl ajkl gjk--*BREATHES*-- so I go dashing off to the bathroom and lo and behold that's where he still was sitting on the toilet seat with his head between his legs looking like he'd puked a good ten times since he got in there.
• Of course I rub his back and try to see what I can do, though apparently his bout of sickness came from the fact that he couldn't contact me and he was freaking out which just made the whole thing worse so I really felt like shit for not being there for him even though he was saying how silly it was that he'd get that scared just cause he couldn't reach me and ds klnaknfjkslnsjkflfna UGGGHHH *are a sorry pair, we are* T__T
  
• So when I finally manage to get him standing and he says he's alright I tell him what the professor said, which he begins to spazz over because he'd all but forgotten he was even in class to begin with (CUE ME TO WOE NOW THNX ;0;)
  
• We get him stuff and explain to him what happened making sure he felt REAL BAD FOR NOT FRIGGIN' CHECKING ON HIM OR SOMETHING *HISSHISSSEEEEEEEETHE* Dx
• I go get his stuff while he sits down to rest and then take him to the nearest pharmacy to get some mild stomach relief pills which I make him take and climb in the backseat and rest for da luvagawd D8
  
• Got home really late (21:45 or so) and when we did... the house was COLD. Apparently the heater in the house broke or some shit like that and the place had been frosting over all day long. =A= My cats were all mewling and huddled in a corner of our bedroom under the blankets and under the bed and and and!!! ;A;!!!
  
• Couldn't do anything about the heater so we went downstairs to get the plug-in heater and tried to get the house at least a little warm, which worked for a while... but then it blew the circuit in our bedroom and most of the house so we were left in total darkness with no electricity and fjksanfdnajln dg .ka lg jgl djg jdlskjgd nld!!!!! D8
• Tried calling the electrical and heating companies to see what the fuck they did to our house while we were gone but couldn't reach them so we left some very angry messages on their emergency lines in hopes they'll get the picture when we threaten with suing and other such unpleasant reprimands for leaving us in a house colder than Siberia. 8D;;;;;
  
• We decided the gods had finally forsaken us and just curled up in bed with our furry companions with layers of clothing on (I hate sleeping with clothes on omfg it's so uncomfortable @~@) and... six or seven blankets.
• Of course we couldn't get to sleep so we talked for hours staring at the ceiling, fingers twined and shoulders and arms touching and wondered what the hell was going on lately, but didn't dwell on it. We talked about happy things like we normally would and interesting things that happened during our day (ignoring the bad ones for now).
  
• Eventually we did fall asleep, but it wasn't very restful sleep since we were worried about everything.
  

Wednesday

• Woke up with one HELL of a back ache X_x;;;
• Made sure Aniki stayed in bed practically the whole day so he wouldn't have to stress himself out much and get sick again (which he psychotically fought me over until I finally let him help out a bit, but that was only after the heating was fixed)
• Got an early morning call from the heating company saying they'd come by right away and see what the problem was, which they did about 20 minutes later, but then wanted to charge 5000¥ for the fucking thing which was THEIR FAULT ANYWAY. Of course I didn't pay and told them if they wanted to take this any further they'd be the ones to pay... which they intelligently backed out of and told me to "Have a nice day! :D;;;;;;;;;" .....uh huh. Yeah. Right. -______-
• Electrical was next, but that didn't get fixed until almost 17:00 and by then I was so exhausted I just rerouted everything and didn't bother to figure out what the hell happened in our room (which still isn't fixed yet btw)
• Tried doing some homework and signed in for work late (obviously) but chief wasn't all that mad, especially after I told about all the craziness that happened. He gave me the next manuscript to edit which looks by far better than the last one, though still lacking in a lot of places.
• Didn't go to see Cael, but called in to check up on him.
  
• Tried doing some homework, but it really hard to concentrate on anything especially with everything that happened.
• Went to sleep early instead to prepare for the next long ass day. x_X
  

Thursday

• Woke up late. Had an interesting dream about HgN stuff: A dragon god finds a human drowning in his lake and saves him, only to find out he's his Mate. Plans to write about it and make into a story. :3
• Went to see Cael early this morning, but the doctor wasn't there so we could only see him a couple minutes and then had to go.
  
• No CW class so I went to Aniki's class to sample his yummy foods (LOL 8DDD)
• Since I was so caught up in all the dishes of food and yummies I didn't realize my second class had already started so I got to Publishing late (15mins or so omfg)
• Publishing: Incredibly boring. Nothing really interesting. Was more or less worrying about my 1st report due next week Thurs. Got back the horrible quiz. =_= Explained to the professor why I was late after class. He was surprisingly understanding about it even though it was my fault. o_o It was... unexpected, but a good unexpected! xD;
  
• GLBT: Handed in activist project. Got back in-class written paper. (Grade: A) Started writing up my dream but kept getting distracted by the topics we were discussing. Did at least start the first couple lines of it at least. 8D;;
  
• Hybrid: Continued writing the story and even thought up the title for it. (Title: The Gods Will Have Blood) Didn't participate too much in class today since I hadn't read the book yet. Tried to keep my attention on the class and give in input when I could, but paid more attention on my writing. Will have to work on readings over weekend.
• Break: Aniki was waiting for me. Apparently his class let out early today so we went to go get food immediately. The line wasn't all that long so we got to eat with reasonable leisure (for once! @~@) I saw my World Lit prof on line and pointed him out to Aniki because I hadn't gotten the chance to snap his photo yet to show Aniki and had wanted to let him see who the guy was. After we got lunch and sat down, we both talked about our classes and agonized about all the work we had due. We parted ways, I walked him over to his class and then went to mine.
  
• World Lit: Actually had quite a bit of fun in this class. Got back 1st paper. (Grade: A) Worked in a group on comparisons between Chekhov and Aleichem's stories in relation to religion. I was recorder since I apparently had the nicest handwriting (lolololololol 8D) then presented it to the class.
  
• Break: Went to see Aniki, but didn't stay long. I just wanted to see him, hold him, kiss him, touch him... I dunno. I must have had a spell of touchy-feely-ness so I pulled him outta class for a few minutes and got us into a secluded area to be lovey-dovey for a while. Let's just say he enjoyed it thoroughly. (As did I~~ *silly smile*)
  
• Theatre: Worked on a new type of performance art called Thousand Hand Buddha. I'm... so fascinated by this. I honestly want to try making up my own version of it and see if I can get others in the class to play it out with me *_*
• FREAKY FACT: Realized some insane and spazzatical coincidences (or are they???) at the same time: This year is going to have 3 "Friday the 13th", two in the row (Feb & Mar, then in Nov), our house will be 13yrs come Nov!! (omfg xD), Aslanti will be 13 yrs old this year!!, AND--and I personally think this is the freakiest part yet--it's been 13yrs since Saki took custody of us. I KID YOU NOT. DD: HOW CREEEPY IS DIS MAN?!?! XDDD;;;;
  
• Got out late because I was so into what I was doing that Aniki actually had to come in and see what the hell was keeping me. xD;;;
• We went to go see Cael at the vet and was overjoyed to hear that we could finally take him home! So we rushed around doing all our late shopping, got the house ready to care for a sick kitty, make sure the house was warm and then went back and picked him up.
• Brought him home and gave him the dreaded bath which he sorely hated until he was clean. Then he loved everything. xDD
• Got him and everyone else something to eat since we hadn't had time to make a proper meal for everyone this morning.
• By the time all of this was done, it was 2:54am. I was tired. Aniki was tired. Cael was sleeping. Everyone had a full belly except Aniki and I. You would think we'd go to sleep, right? WRONG. We went to work and didn't go to sleep till 8:45 am. Fuckin brilliant, huh?
  

Friday

• Happy Friday the 13th!
  
• Finally cleaned out folders on desktop
• Drew some new character concepts and sketches
• GOT SOME SLEEP.
• Got from final writing assignment from last semester's CW class in the mail. It was quite amusing to see. xD
• Worked the whole night long on CW stuff and report.
  
• Edited the new manuscript
  

Saturday

• Happy Anti-V Day! Mwahhaah!
• We're not going into classes today. Just not worth the insanity valentines sparks among students =A=
• Slept and did homework. LOL IT WAS A GLAMOROUS DAY REALLY. 8D;
  

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] G1 Playlist [Mood] STRESSED!! TOO MUCH WORK TO DO AHHHHH!

Alright. Expect mass journal dumping in new future.

That is all.

Weekly Update [Feb. 01-07] **LATE**

Quote of the Week: “The hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn!” – David Russell

Sunday

• Was told about a manuscript I have to completely edit by next week. It's 400 pages and I need to have book design, marketing, proofreading, copyreading, line editing and book layout down. ALL. THAT. BY. NEXT. WEEK. WEDNESDAY. *CRIEEEZ*
  

Monday

• IT'S GROUNDHOG DAY!!!
• ....AND I COMPLETELY FORGOT!!!! 8DDDD;;;;;;
• pfftt... so I made up for not watching Groundhog Day by watching it Tuesday night (late late) Aniki thought it was really cute. I was just crazed I forgot to begin with and blamed it all on ridiculous class hours and work. D:
• Spent the WHOLE FRIGGING DAY READING. Soooo much reading due omfg. @_@
  

Tuesday

• HOLY FUCK IT SNOWED LIKE A PSYCHO ALL DAY DDDD:
  
• CW: Talked about Chekhov like nobody's business. xD Got to know those in my class even more than before.
  
• Publishing: Did really boring stuff I can't remember
  
• GLBT: went to a youth center for gays and lesbians. It was more like a gay bar actually which was insanely funny. XD
  
• Hybrid: Missed half the class but had legit reason (the class before ran longer than expected so I had a note explaining away everything. ♥ )
  
• Break: Spent most of the time in the backseat of the car, snoozing. Aniki and I weren't very hungry, besides we had no idea where food was located in this place. xD;;
  
• World Lit: Got to class on time and discussed the stories read. Professor told us he made a mistake on the assignments by giving us waaay too much work so early on so he'd drop one of our papers and move back some assignments later on in the semester but that he wanted us to read and get it out of the way now so the rest of the semester would be much easier.
  
• Break: Finally found a snack and drink machine and got some dried fruit, skittles and a coffee each. ♥
  
• Theatre: Was assigned roles for our first play (Mar.3) and I was assigned the role of Emperor!! XDDDD I... was... HIGHLY AMUSED. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL (convo with Mindy-san later in week only made it all the more amusing xD) Though it's so odd not having him there with me. oAo ...I got some chick to be my empress f jkafnldngkdlnjkdl Not cool man, but at least I don't have to kiss her or anything. *shrug*
  

Wednesday

• Cael wasn't doing so well for most of the day. We tried to see what was wrong but he just sort of layed there. We were worried that something was wrong, but everytime we thought to possibly take him to the vet we saw him walking around and eating and hissing at the other cats like normal and figure he was JUST FINE. =___=;;;
  
• But we called our vet to be sure, but he wasn't there. Out on vacation or something.
  
• Since Cael seemed to be doing fine by the end of the day we didn't worry anymore and figured we were being too sensitive so went back to our work.

Thursday

• Did not make it in to classes.
• Cael wasn't breathing this morning. We thought he was dead. We rushed him over to the animal hospital and they had to operate on him. Apparently his lung collapsed and he had a mild heartattack.
• We panicked and worried the entire day. There was no way we could have concentrated knowing he was in such a critical condition.
• Emailed all professors to let them know why we didn't come in.
• Bought munchins and pigged out on them with Aniki all night while we worried. (Shut up. Don't laugh. We love that grumpy old cat with all our being. ;_____; )
  

Friday

• Cael was still unconscious. We stayed there for a long time talking with him and poking his ears the way he hates/loves to see if we could spark some life in him and he seemed to respond!! ;^; We also just wanted to let him know we were there because the doctor called earlier to tell us he was freaking out with all the new people around him and was moving the tubes by getting anxious and worried. That worried us so we stayed as long as we could then went home (after he finally calmed down completely)
• Went and did our shopping for the house and got our supplies.
  
• Did as much of our homework as possible.
• Got the manuscript in the mail today and I just tossed it because I couldn't be bothered right now. ;-;
  

Saturday

• This day went well. Very well! :3
  
• Cael woke up!! :D He's doing good. Already grumpy and hissing at the nurses and doctor and GODS I'm SO happy he's okay. ;~; *whimpers and makes grabby hands at even though cat claws and hisses at me spitefully xD;;*
• Theatre: Insane. Just... Really crazy. xD;; I'm glad I went though. It brought up my spirits some.
  
• Mindy-san finally got her package!! OMFG YAY! :DD She texted me and told me so herself with spazzing and much happiness! I was in class so I couldn't talk too long, but when I got home I went online to talk with her and spazzed with her because this was like some sort of karmatic miracle that she finally got this friggin thing, I mean seriously! D: I've been trying to send it for just about FOREVER. Dx
• As I said to Mindy-san, this convo sums my feelings from this day:
• Me: ....I really was a bit surprised though when I got your text. I turned to my classmate and was all "NO WAI SHE GOT IT!!!! DDDDDDDD:!!!!" "Who got what?" "ISN'T IT OBVIOUS?!?!?!!?! ZE MINDY-SAN GOT HER GIFTS YOU FOOL!!!!!!! DX" "OMG SORRY!! HURRAY SHE GOT 'EM" "DAMN STRAIGHT!! DX :spazzes and texts you now while very scared classmate runs away:"
  Me: xDDDD True story. <#
  Me: *<3
  Mindy-san: fjhgkjdfgh xDDDDDDDDD I'm glad I could help you scare away your classmate <3>
  Me: xDDDDDDD It was all worth it. He worked even harder around me... though I will say he wasn't all that good either way. 8D;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; <3>
  Mindy-san: xDDDDDDDD;;; That's beside the point! 8DD;;;;;;;

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] G1 Playlist [Mood] STRESSED!! TOO MUCH WORK TO DO AHHHHH!

mea culpa

I feel overwhelmed already it's only been two days of class!! /@___@\ I can't believe so much work has been assigned within such a short amount of time!

And the classes...

UGGGGHHH

ONE AFTER ANOTHER AFTER ANOTHER.


NOT. FUN. AT. ALL.

I want very much to update this thing, but I have utterly no time until after classes tomor--I mean later today! /@_________@\ *whimperzzzz*

I should be asleep but I'm too stressed out to sleep.

I should be doing the rest of my work but it hurts my head just to look at it.

I should be trying to consume the necessary nutrient (LOL FOOD) needed to make it through 8+ hours of classes but there's nothing to eat in the house.

I should be looking for cash so I can eat tomorrow but I have no idea where my wallet is.

I should be packing my bags so I won't have to tomorrow but just looking at all the books I'm supposed to bring makes my eyes wanna water and tear.



I SHOULD NOT BE ONLINE RIGHT NOW BUT I AM.







YET I HAVE NO REAL UPDATE FOR YOU ALL.
MEA CULPA.


-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] nothing but the sound of my voiceless screaming... [Mood] ...I think I should lie down now...

Weekly Update [Jan. 25-31] **LATE**

Quote of the Week: “The roots of true achievement lie in the will to become the best that you can become.” – Harold Taylor

Sunday

• Nothing of signifigance. Fer realz. D:

Monday

• HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
• Went to the festival in Chinatown
• Will post up pictures soon. ♥
  

Tuesday-Wednesday

• Nothing of signifigance. Fer realz. D:
  

Thursday

• ......SHIT I DON'T REMEMBER BUT I KNOW IT WAS THE FIRST DAY SO LOTS WENT ON. MAYBE WHEN I THINK OF IT I'LL WRITE IT DOWN BUT NOT NOW.
  

Friday

• ....yeah can't remember this either. Shit this is what I get for putting this updating thing off for 4 WEEKS. fjksnalfjsdkalnknjldnjkzn f
  

Saturday

• Slept and wondered what the hell I've gotten myself into.
  

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] G1 playlist [Mood] calm

Weekly Update [Jan. 18-24] **LATE**

Quote of the Week: “The roots of true achievement lie in the will to become the best that you can become.” – Harold Taylor

Sunday

• It snowed. AGAIN!! @_@
• Updated my blogs
• Watched Planet Earth: Ice Worlds
  
• Went grocery & herbal shopping with Aniki.Then went and picked up things needed for stay here.
  
• Watched the Obama Inauguration Concert Special. It was AMAZING btw~~
  

Monday

• HAPPY MLK DAY!
• DL-ed anime practically all day
• Wrote and edited PN manuscript
• It snowed some more!!! D:
  

Tuesday

• OBAMA INAUGURATION CEREMONY!!!!! BUSH GETS THE BOOT!! MWAHAHA!
  
• DL-ed anime
• "Dance of 10 Twirls" LOL xD //Obamas @ 10 Balls wtf
• Watched the Inauguration all morning long and recorded it too! xD
• Everything went so nicely. I was praying to every god I know of to let nothing happen to anyone at the election. *spazz*
• Edited PN manuscript and then edited manuscript for work
  
• Got Dagger's package in the mail. It was JUST what I needed then. Thanks man.
  

Wednesday

• ...I... I don't remember. XDDDD;;;
  

Thursday

• ......SHIT I DON'T REMEMBER THIS EITHER!! fjksanfkdnkjdlnjd
  

Friday

• Got Hunter's package.
• Talked with her most of the night which was more than just a little fun. xD;
• Went on a game spree with Aniki. We must have had momentary insanity or something because we just found games (card games, computer games, board games, memory games, work games, puzzle, what-have-you) and played them for HOURS ON END. xD;;
  

Saturday

• Read Secret Moon.
• Slept.
  

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] G1 playlist [Mood] calm

10words Meme

Stolen from drive_thru_rx.

Write ficlets for each of the following in only ten words. This is SO HARD, and I triple-dog-dare all of you writers to try it.

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HgN (of course)

Angst
He was never a hero; never pretended to be either.

AU (any of the alternate futures, whether it be M/K, M/DK, M/DK/K, M/A, M/J, M/A/J or any other combination)
Their children climbed trees as they had in their youth.

Crackfic
He'd wanted Mikel in his bed... just not like this.

Crossover (Universes Meeting)
"I'll tell you this, I NEVER wanted to meet myself."

Death
The colors fade to gray amidst a sea of red.

Episode-Related (Arc)
Sheppard wanted to return, but he'd never endanger the hive.

First Time
Cool night air flowing through wings is an unforgettable moment.

Fluff
Under the mound of furs was their kings snuggling together.

Humor
"You'll never believe this, but Aniki's daisies ate the gardener."

M/DK
Fingertips like fire trail over skin already aflame with heat.

Smut (oh well crap... the one before would have worked just FINE xD;;)
Moving, breathing together; twisting, bending, crying out in utter bliss.

UST (Universal SoundTrack... idk xD)
Music carried them, synchronized in perfect harmony with their brothers.

-Later!
The Autophobic Golden Gods.

[Music] Folie a Deux playlist [Mood] Energetic